Employment Opportunities

5/19/2012

My life has changed considerably since my last blog entry. Seeing the doctor in Santa Rosa seems kind of like a weary process, and I don’t feel anything is changing due to the medications that I am putting into my body. But I feel like I am in a different place because my priorities have changed. I’ve decided to channel all my energies into giving piano lessons as well as working for Avon, something that I never imagined I would do before. Several weeks ago, my day was pleasantly interrupted by a knock on the door, and a woman named Lora told me she was with Avon and was looking for people who were looking to make extra money. I told her my girlfriend might be interested but wasn’t here, and as I talked to her some more I realized that Avon wasn’t only for women, but that men could succeed in this business as well. Here was a chance to put my Southwestern Book Company skills to the test. I invited her in and she shared with me the business opportunity that existed with Avon. I told her I didn’t have a car and she said that I could still be successful without one. Since I had been looking for a job for quite some time, I considered the opportunity, and decided that I would put everything I had into it. Lora seemed like the type of person that would really help me get started, and I’m learning from her how to motivate others to work with Avon as well. It’s challenging though, no doubt. We did some cold call knocking on doors, and I contacted some friends and family that I knew and told them about Avon’s products and the opportunity. I shared the opportunity with my girlfriend Stephanie and she decided to work with me in my downline. So far it’s been about 2 weeks and contacting quite a few people, and only 2 sales for Steph and 2 sales for me, but I can see that if I stick with it, I can be successful in this, and this would distract me from my prior religious obsessions. After all, it wasn’t long ago, only a few short months in fact, that I began obsessing with the Middle East Peace process, and thought I had discovered a solution that the world needed to hear. So important was this 13 page writing that I had done, that I made 30 copies of it, and began to hand it out to people in the community. I even went to Wells Fargo and tried to get a loan for $10,000, thinking I would pay the Union Newspaper in Grass Valley to print the letter starting on the front page of the newspaper. It’s this problem with self-importance I have which tends to accompany any manic episode I have ever had. The grandiosity is overwhelming. I think if I can channel my manic energies into giving piano lessons and selling Avon, the next time I receive boundless energy, I will funnel the energy into these two productive avenues, rather than obsessing with the Rapture, the end of the world, the 2nd coming of Jesus Christ, and the New World Order and World War 3. I may still follow these topics online, but hopefully my manic obsessions will not get the better of me. My dad thinks this is all caused by Lyme disease, which I am now being treated for by Doctor Z. I can’t say that I believe all my religious pre-occupations are because of a tick bite that must have occurred years ago, but there’s no harm in trying. I don’t mind the ride down to Santa Rosa, and it also gives me a chance to catch up with my sister who is working a short drive from that area. I’ve given up fighting. I’ll do what the psychiatrist wants me to do- I’ll take his drugs and stop going off meds when I start getting excited and losing sleep, I’ll do what the doc in Santa Rosa wants me to do. I just want peace in my life, and if being compliant with what all these people want me to do, then maybe I can achieve some of that peace I’ve wanted for so long. It seems that when I fight the system I always end up in the hospital sooner or later. I’m just praying that I can keep that resolve going when the inevitable time comes when I start getting really excited and having all this abundance of energy. Hopefully the energy will help me go out and recruit a bunch of sales leaders to my team, and find an abundance of students who long to become proficient on the piano. We’ll see how that dream is going in my next blog entry.