My latest meeting with doctor Z

Posted by on Oct 19, 2012 in Chris' Blog | 0 comments

In my latest meeting with the doctor, my dad asked if Minocycline was as effective against Lyme disease as any of the other antibiotics I am taking. He suggested switching with one of the other antibiotics since that drug has been highly effective in reducing symptoms of psychosis. Dr Z said we could do that but I told him I didn’t want to change any of the meds. The doctor, not having any reason to disagree with me, said he was in favor of keeping my dosages and medications the same, and not rock the boat. I appreciate the doctor for listening to my concerns, and agreeing to keep the medications the same.
So far it has been nearly 9 months since my last hospitalization, and I feel like I am doing quite well. I know I have to stay cautious, because the last time I went to the hospital it had been nearly 9 months and I got overconfident. After 9 months of healthy living, I started getting the idea that Jesus had healed me, and felt I no longer needed medications. Big mistake. If there is one thing I hope I have learned from all this is, don’t get overconfident, no matter how long you’ve been out of the hospital. I need the meds to stay healthy, and they don’t really give me all that many side effects, so there is really no need to try to live without them, unless my pride gets in the way.
I have managed to get a new job at McDonald’s, and even though it only pays minimum wage, I feel much better and more productive now that I have a job. It hasn’t been too difficult so far. I work at the front register, and although I make a few mistakes here and there, for the most part, I am doing OK. I’m hoping to work at Mcdonald’s for at least 2 years, maybe 3 so that I can get to a really stable place in my life. I truly believe if I stay taking the meds, and don’t get too swept away with apocalyptic thinking I can do just fine and stay out of the hospital from now on. I refuse to be overconfident again and stop taking my meds. My life cannot take any more big setbacks. During the last 9 months, I have had not a single manic or hypomanic thought, which is very encouraging for me. I don’t mind thinking small for a while, avoiding these thoughts of starting my own church in India or whatnot. Maybe someday, if I prove myself within the Salvation Army, this might be a possibility, but for now, I am content to work at McDonald’s, teach a few students piano lessons, and perform piano concerts for retirement homes every once in a while.

I have a different psychiatrist now. She seems more open to my dad’s ideas than the last one. She made a small reduction in the amount of Haldol I am taking.

My fiancé and I have decided on next June for our wedding, and although I still am uncertain on what the two of us will be doing, and what we want to do for careers, I believe we will be good partners for each other so long as we keep our love and devotion to God strong between us.

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